Walking On Sunshine
School started back up today. It's one of my least and most favorite days of the semester. I hate it because I get kinda nervous not knowing who I have class with or what my professor is like. I like it because you don't have any assignment to discuss or turn in. I have a feeling this semester is going to be hectic. I will be doing my Reading practicum at Neely and helping with Gym class at St. Pat's. (Hmm those are both close to Cody's house....maybe if I ever have a break I could stop by!)

Yep that's right, Adam and I are fini. Friday night while out with the girls I got a call from Adam. At the time I was on the phone with Cody. Don't get me wrong, I didn't do anything with Cody while Adam and I were still together. But when I called Adam back, I told him my concerns. He agreed with me and we broke it off. I think he thinks we might get back together when he comes back to town. But I am highly doubting that! He's not my dream man after all. I did go hang out with Cody that night though. I needed some male affection.

Working out has made me feel great. I feel healthier and have more energy! I hope I can keep it up throughout the semester!

I Need A Sign
A week has passed and I think it's time to end the charade Adam and I have going on. He has no idea how long he is going to be gone and I just don't feel like he is as serious about our relationship as I am. I've been without a boyfriend for a while now. So I'm going to be committed and faithful to one when I get one. I just don't think Adam is going to do the same for me. I don't doubt that he likes me, it's just that I don't see us going anywhere. If I could sense some kind of commitment from him, I'd feel a lot better than I do right now. I think I'm going to call him tonight and let him know how I feel. This could be the end of a holiday romance. I just can't let this get me down. There has to be a better guy out there for me!

My Sacrifice
Well Adam and I are official now I guess. He told me I could call us whatever I wanted to. It didn't matter to him because no matter what he's not going to cheat on me. I guess that is a positive comment?! Right now he is on his way to Tampa, Fl though. He's trying to sell his clothing line to his friend down there. I hope he sells it fast and gets his butt back here.

Last post I was pretty mad at him, but we worked things out. Now him and Jayme need to smooth out there problems. Jayme just needs a boyfriend! Or at least a reason to get out of the house! Like a job!!! Right now she's always home and bored. If she had a job or a guy, I'm sure she'd be less cranky and more likely to stay out of me and Adam's hair! But now that Adam is gone for about a month, she has plenty of time to get a job or a guy! lol

Kristin and I are in love with a rap song that rhymes 'rubberband and taliban' lol. If you know the song let us know!!!!!

Last Call
Well Adam and I are kind of iffy right now. We exchanged Christmas gifts and even went out on our first official date, but after that date we got into an argument. It was a miscommunication on both of our parts.

After he dropped me off at my house, I started bawling! Good thing my girls were at my house to comfort me. Amy, Nikki, and Jayme were hanging out there and made me feel better. We male bashed for a while and then I called him on his cell phone. The convo got heated and at one point he told me to "grow up." DO NOT TELL ME TO GROW UP!!!! I yelled in the phone, "I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU JUST TOLD ME TO F*^#ING GROW UP!" Then I hung up the phone and threw it across the room. By mistake it hit my sister, but I think she understands.

Adam called me back about 20 minutes later. I guess he thought I'd be cooled off by then. He said he'd rather talk to me in person that on the phone. I agreed with him. We both hated fighting! He came over and we sat in his car for a 1/2 hour talking. He decided we should hang out with our friends for the next 2 days, including New Year's Eve. I'm not that happy about not seeing him at midnight, but he says he might stop by to see me anyways.

I'm excited about this New Year's because I've been invited to a private party, but at the same time I'm sad. Hopefully things will work out. Regardless, I'll be with my girls when the ball drops in Times Square!

HEY JEALOUSY
Adam is back and things are going great. We've hung out a lot since he's got in town. He's been busy doing Christmas shopping while I am at work. He called my sister and asked her some questions about what he should get me. He's a sweetheart! Last night his roommate from Memphis called and asked him what he was doing and he said, "just watching tv with my girl." AWWW he called me his girl! Ok, I know I am a dork. But OH WELL! He makes me very happy! I'll have more to talk about once we exchange gifts! :-D

Chocolate Fix
Only 1 day until Adam comes back to St. Joe! I'm very anxious to see him again. He called me last night just to say hi and see what I was doing. He doesn't know exactly how long he is staying, but I hope he is here for New Year's Eve. Last night I watched the O.C. and it talked about how you spend your midnight on NYE is how you'll spend the rest of your year. So I hope I'm with him when the ball drops.

Lots of fun stuff is happening this week. Nikki graduates from beauty school, we are having a Christmas party tonight with some friends, and every one that has gone away for college comes home!

Hopefully my next post is soon...if not, it's because Adam has me preoccupied. ;-)

Walking In Memphis
The guy I've met graduated in '99. He was athletic and popular in high school, so of course I knew who he was. When he met me though, he wasn't sure of who I was. I think he asked one of my friends what my name was! That's ok because there are a lot of people that are younger than me that know me, but I don't know them. He wondered why I never talked to him in h.s. Yeah right, like I had enough nerve to talk to an older guy when I was in school!! I was soo shy when it came to guys back then.

Adam, that's his name, has been calling me from Memphis. He says he'll be coming back for Christmas in about a week or so. I'm soo anxious to see him again. We are supposed to go out to the movies when he comes back. He also told me that he thinks he'll be moving to K.C. in February. That's not here, but it's wayyyy closer than Memphis.

Well I gotta get back to work now! More later!

P.S. Only 2 finals and I'm done with college until Jan 20th! Yippee!

And here is a song....It's "Making Out" by No Doubt!

Yeah...
I'm on the second floor with a lock on my door
I'm looking at a picture of your face
The last time I looked you were looking really good
But somehow pictures fade

Then we're on the phone and we're all alone
But that just ain't good enough
I go around the world to see your face
'Cause this just ain't good enough

So I'm just kicking it
I'm counting the days
I hardly can wait
For us to hang out
I'm really missing it
In so many ways
I anticipate us making out

(Here comes another one)

Sip my morning tea but you're not next to me
Here goes another day
And driving in my car
I wonder how you are
As our favorite music plays

And the flowers arrived to my surprise
But that just ain't good enough
And I got the note
It gave me hope
But that just ain't good enough

So I'm just kicking it
I'm counting the days
I hardly can wait
For us to hang out
I'm really missing it in so many ways
I anticipate us making out
(Repeat)

Yeah...

Ooh oohh
Ooh oohh
Ooh oohh

Soon you'll be here with me (making out...)
Soon you'll be right here with me

I'm with my friends 'till the night ends
But that just ain't good enough
And honestly you can trust me
But that just ain't good enough

So I'm just kicking it
I'm counting the days
I hardly can wait for us to hang out
I'm really missing it in so many ways
I anticipate us making out

Come On Home
So Thanksgiving break was great. Met a guy, a nice guy. He doesn't live here right now, but before long he'll be back for Christmas. Eventually he'll move to KC too. It's funny how people from your past come back and surprise you. Someone you never talked to before, may be your Prince Charming.

More on that later! ;-)

Intel Inside
I'm at work all by myself today. It's kinda lonely. Kinda scary too. So far I have had a 36 year old man ask me out on a date and had 4 Spanish speaking Mexicans hang out in the office for about an hour. I hate not knowing what they are saying about me! Two of them left for a little bit and came back, I wonder if they went down to Bill's Pub for a drink. LOL If you don't see another post for a long time, I've been kidnapped by either the dirty old 36 year old or the 4 other dudes.

I am soo ready for Thanksgiving!! I will indulge in mashed potatoes and pumpkin pie with Cool Whip for as long as there are leftovers! It will be nice to just relax and hang out with the family. It's been awhile since the whole Hook side has hung out.

So I'm pretty sure that Austin hates me. He saw me at the Jamboree last night and gave me a mini-lecture. He reiterated that he has liked me for a long time and that he wished I felt the same way. But I don't and I don't know how to tell him firmly, but nicely that I don't see us together. He is nice to me, but he's dated my sister before, is friends with TJ and all those guys, and I'm just not attracted to him. PLUS GUYS REALLY SUCK RIGHT NOW!

Well Phat Dogg was fun and a good getaway, but I missed my friends. I did make a new friend though, Tracy Schneider. She was a lot of fun to hang out with all weekend. The concert was awesome and I loved the fact it was in town! We need more of those!

Tomorrow starts my 4 day weekend! Happy Thanksgiving, I'm outtie!

Mint Green
The rest of this week is going to be hella busy, so don't expect another post until maybe late Sunday night. I have the Kappa Delta Pi induction tomorrow night that I have to speak at. I am the treasurer, so I have some kind of role in the ceremony. What role I am not sure yet. Friday night is the Rascal Flatts concert with Amy, then I think we'll head over to our "hot spot" for the rest of the night. But Saturday morning at 7:30am I have to go pick up my brother and head to East Hills. From there we are leaving for Tan-Tar-A for YL's Phat Dawg road trip. We'll get back in town around 7pm on Sunday.

I had a freaky dream last night. One of my guy friends died, but I was never told who it was. The flower shop I order flowers from when someone in my church dies, called me and said they thought I knew the person and would want to send them flowers. Ryan was in it too. There were a bunch of my friends in cars outside of my house and he was outside of a car with Kyle Ulmer. I went over to my car to get something and to try to get Ryan to talk to me, but when I walked back across the street he was gone. He didn't even talk to me or look at me.

Yeah I know I'm a weirdo!