Sick Feeling
Mood:  blue
Today has been a no good very bad day. Ever since I got to work and read that fateful email. My adviser has made it quite clear that there is no chance for graduation until May 2005. I know it's not that far away. But I was ready to graduate in December!!!!! I'm crushed!!! I have had a constant sick feeling in my stomach all day.
I might end up taking Bowling and Aerobic Dance this fall. Why not learn to bowl and get in shape while I'm stuck in school another semester!
I really need some good news....so if you have any, I'm all ears!

Lonely Hearts Book Club
Mood:  irritated
Amy and I have started a book club. We are all about reading novels about single ladies and their dating experiences. The book I am reading now is "Straight Talking." It is a novel that takes place in England, so a little translation is needed. It is great so far and reminds me of Sex and the City. It's amazing at how well you can relate to a book that was wrote by someone you've never met or will never meet. Amy is reading "Summer Sisters" by Judy Blume. After we are done we'll exchange books. Feel free to leave suggestions for future readings! We are trying to keep it fun and funny!
I am irritated because graduation is in jeopardy right now. I just discovered I am missing a class that is vital to my teaching certification. I've email half of the staff at MWSC in hopes that I can fix this dilemma. I wish my advisor was worth a crap and could help me out instead of telling me to put off graduation and student teaching until the Spring!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
Sorry it has been awhile since I've wrote, but I've been busy at work. This week I SHOULD have an entry every day since my boss is out of town on business until Friday. Happy Monday to all! :-P

The following is just some eye candy and wishful thinking! :-D

Old Flames
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: Picture- Sheryl Crow & Kid Rock
I had another one of my dreams last night. In it Luke and I get back together. We are kissing and I am thinking how great this is to be back with Luke. Later on in the same dream, some how Luke is now Will Smith(the actor). And I am dating Will Smith! How cracked out are my dreams?!?
I am starting to get excited about the wedding I am attending tomorrow night. From what I hear there are going to be tons of single guys that have already graduated from college! They will either have gone to CHS with the groom or Northwest. My friends Andy and Jacob (that I might during my YL days) are wanting to see me drunk. So Andy is arranging my transportation to and from the wedding/reception. What's the big thrill? I just have to be sure I don't get biligerent especially since there will be hot guys crawling all over the place. CONTROL, GINA, CONTROL!
I am not sure what I am doing tonight. Probably the same ol' thing with the girls. Tomorrow I am getting my finger nails, toe nails, hair and eye brows done before the wedding. I will take some pics so I can post them on here later!
By the way, my bling bling ring came in handy on Wednesday night when Amy, Nikki, Justin, Jesse, and I went to the NEW Cagney's. There were a bunch of old dirty guys sitting at a table and they were staring at us girls. So I switched my ring from the middle finger on my left hand to the ring finger. Jesse said he'd be my fiance for the night since he thinks I want him to be mine anyways(yeah right Jess!).

Birthday Bash
Mood:  caffeinated
Less than one month until the big 2-3. It just sounds sooo old! I can't believe I'm more than half way to 40!!! Because I will be student teaching this fall and graduating in December....I've decided to celebrate this birthday in a major way.
I haven't had a real big birthday party since I was 16. Talk about comedy! I found the video of it and I laughed the entire time. The lake was low, but not as low as it is now. The boys were out in canoes and paddle boats fishing and goofing off. The girls were eating and playing volleyball. I had a cake with a fake drivers license on it with my picture on it. Everyone sang Happy Birthday to me and gave me gifts (well the girls brought gifts). It was a good time with good clean fun.
This year I'd like to have a themed party. Maybe "Pimps and Hoes 2". 2 years ago the guys had a party with that theme and it was a lot of fun. They dressed up in ghetto homeboy or pimp costumes and the girls wore prostitute apparel or ghetto clothes. Paula and I went all out! We adorned ourselves with fake tattoos, streaks of hair color, tight pants, big hoop earrings, and our bellies hanging out. Oh wait I had blood red fake nails too! The pictures from that night are hilarious.
I think we need another night of fun like that. Amy's birthday is exactly one week after mine, so we could make it a huge party for the two of us. One last night of childish fun before settling down and starting to act like a real teacher.
P.S. Thanks to everyone that reads this and special thanks to Michelle and Paula for posting messages! It's fun to read what my girls have to say. And it's ok Paula, just don't let it happen again ;-) lol

Trails West Hoe!
Mood:  cheeky
Now Playing: Two Princes- Spin Doctors
This weekend is Trails West AND Westward Ho! I'm thrown off by this because it is normally the week after my birthday. They moved the dated to align with the Lewis and Clark Expedition celebrations that are going on right now.
I have a problem with Trails West though. These past few years it has turned into a huge teenager corral. Thousands upon thousands of middle and high school students walk around Civic Center Park from the time the festival starts on Friday until it closes on Sunday. Most of them stand in masses right in the middle of the sidewalks preventing anyone from getting through. Maybe I'm just getting old and starting to complain like a senior citizen. I am excited though to see Tracy Lawrence on Saturday night.
GRRR...I just got off of the phone with a grumpy old man. He called and said that we were trying to "f" him around. I hate it when people think they can cuss on the phone to a total stranger. He's the ignorant one that mailed his payment in over a holiday so by the time we rec'd it, a past due notice had already gone out. Act your age geez!

Bling Bling
Mood:  cool
Now Playing: Barely Breathing- Duncan Sheik
When I get down on myself and guys, I like to buy myself something to cheer me up! So I went out to the mall. At first I wasn't going to spend any money I was just going to look and come back to purchase when I get paid on the 15th. But no! If I leave the mall without buying anything, the world may stop turning. So I went into Icing(the accessory shop) and looked around. I ended up trying on huge fake diamond rings and I felt better. I bought one that has a huge blue fake diamond with a fake platinum band with 8 fake small blue diamonds on each side. Am I a dork or what? When I showed my mom she said, "It looks fake." Well duh like I could afford a real ring! I can't even afford to get my hair and eyebrows done until I get paid in another week (and it's driving me crazy)!
I could use a night like Carrie had in last night's episode of Sex and the City. Carrie was low on money and was feeling down. Her exotic female friend from Europe was in town and set her up with a rich architect from Paris. The ended up staying the night together after a long day of sightseeing. When she woke up to tell him good bye before he left to go to Brazil, she finds an envelope. In the envelope is a note and $1,000. Of course Carrie didn't know whether to be offended or flattered. So she just makes it into a learning experience and says "I've now determined my rate for a one night stand." LOL! I love that show! A sugar daddy would be great right about now. Too bad all the guys here are broke asses.

Perfect on Paper
Mood:  quizzical
Last night Amy and I watched Sex and the City while eating Ben and Jerry's Half Baked ice cream. What a perfect combination! After the episode about how everyone has someone in their past that they had secret sex with, we started talking about our own experiences. Personally I've never had sex with someone that I didn't tell my friends about out of shame or embarrassment. So that convo switched over to making out with someone we were embarrassed about. Yes there have been a few of those in my past! But they were ones I regretted because they were bad kissers or ended up being assholes.

The main discussion of the night was, "How can some guys be perfect on paper, but in reality we aren't attracted to them at all?" A few years ago I was faced with this dilemma. His name was Brett Smith and he was the nicest, sweetest, and cutest guy. I met him while he was serving me at my favorite restaurant at the time, Carlos O'Kelly's. One of my friends, I think Paula, gave him my number and he called me shortly after that. During our first date(KC for Olive Garden and then browsing Barnes and Noble), I had a fun time, but quickly realized I didn't want to kiss him at the end of the night. Scratch that, I didn't even want to hold hands with him. He wasn't a creep or nerd or anything bad, I just wasn't physically attracted to him. We continued to talk on the phone, but not much later our search for compatibility fizzled. I still believe he's an awesome guy and would be a perfect husband(last I knew he was engaged)...but just not for me. Why can't we make ourselves fall in love with such great guys?

And now that I think about it...why do I seem to hang on the ones that aren't soo great? More on that later.

Spread 'Em
Mood:  d'oh
I'm about to divulge a huge secret. It's something I'm not proud of, but I realize it's time to nip this problem in the butt. Here it goes... I've never been to the Gynecologist. Yes, I am almost 23 and never been checked out down there. I know it shouldn't be a big deal, but it's scary to me!
Although I've gotten better at letting guys look around and explore the world down under, I'm not sure about the whole poking and prodding by a doctor while I'm sober. Amy and I have decided to bite the bullet together and face our fears together. She's never been either. We both agreed that it's something that needs to be done to make sure we are healthy. But to tell you the truth, I'm scared to death that I might not be healthy. Both sides of my family have had cancer of different sorts. And my physical activities some times aren't the safest either. I know I am probably just paranoid, but Amy and I both want to put our paranoia to rest by seeing a professional.
Please be praying for/thinking of us girls as we lose our Gyno virginity.

Blank Slate
Mood:  chatty
I'm not feeling very inspired today for some reason. I could go on and on about things in a conversation right now, but when I type it up it sounds all wrong. So I'm just going to try again later tonight. Maybe after I've had my nails done and coached my brother's basketball game, I'll have some material to work with. I will leave you with a quote though from the very wise Carrie Bradshaw from Sex and the City, "People go into casinos for the same reason they go out on blind dates- hoping to hit the jackpot. But mostly, you just wind up broke or alone in a bar."

Walking Hard On
Mood:  chillin'
I know I should just forget all about the wedding reception...but I remembered something that is too good not to share. While I was looking pathetic sitting at my table alone, people I had gone to high school with would walk by and tell me to smile or go drink a beer. I'd force a smile and then tell them I was the designated driver for the night. That's when the ultimate depressant came over the speakers....a slow song. I leaned back and made myself a little more comfortable in the cold metal folding chair. Then there was a tap on my shoulder from behind. It was a guy I graduated with. He said, "Come on Gina B! Let's dance." Even though I have no romantic interest in him at all, I followed him out on the dance floor. As we swayed back and forth (not in time with the music because he has no rhythm), I felt something rubbing against me. As I glanced down, during small talk, I noticed it was his "member". I didn't pay a lot of attention to it until later that night.
After the reception everyone decided to head to a local bar to drink more and reminisce with old friends. I was coaxed into dancing to a fast song with a couple of girls. I looked around the dance floor and noticed the same guy I had danced with was grinding on a girl I'd never seen before. I also noticed he has a full on hard on! As she was backing into him to dance some more, he lunged forward and she went falling forward to the floor. Now I'm not going to say his hard on knocked her down, well yeah I will say that! HA HA HA! It was hilarious! So now I will refer to him as W.H.O. (walking hard on). I kinda feel bad for the boy. But over the years he's just lost his mojo(that's what he refers to it as, not me).
Amy and I might go out tonight after she gets off of work. I am hoping to see Jeff out at the Muny. I miss him. :-( That's enough of that though.

Ok which hair color should I go with? Ponder over it for awhile and then let me know by posting me a message!